He hacked my accounts. Violated the order. Deleted years of work. Took the food from our kids mouths. Justice is coming. #narcissisticabuse #justicewillbeserved
Went to a western themed wedding last night and didn’t expect this… but it kind of warmed my cold little heart. I think when you’ve been through a divorce it’s easy to side eye the whole concept of lasting love. But something about last night.. the vows.. the way they looked at each other.. the way the bride’s dad cried.. just cracked something open. I even found myself thinking maybe it is possible to have a real, steady, healthy love. MAYBE. I’m still keeping his face covered though. We’ve seen how “going public” worked out for me before. Anyway, love might be real. I’m cautiously optimistic. And also wearing cowboy boots. & I learned how to two-step!!
I don’t think you fully understand how much I needed this. (Ok you def do) My mom, my dad, my sister and my two beautiful nieces are here all the way from Chicago and staying for a few weeks. I’m overwhelmed (in the best possible way) with love and support right now. My heart is full, my fridge is empty, and I may never let them leave. 🥹✨💖
After eight days of trial and error.. reaching out to different support teams (some saying “there’s nothing we can do,” others saying “we’re trying”) we’ve successfully restored 630 youtube videos!! (that were deleted one by one by my ex, the father of our children.) That’s four years of creative expression and meaningful conversations I care deeply about. Initially when I discovered four years of videos were deleted, I felt… nothing. I think I was just in survival mode. I told myself, “Well, I’m healthy. My kids are healthy. I’ll rebuild. Moving on.” But day by day, it hit me. The Halloween workout—a video millions of people come back to every year—gone. The sketches I wrote and directed, the ones I poured my heart into—gone. The countless interviews I did with some of the most inspiring people I’ve ever met—gone. My birth videos—some of the most sacred, raw, powerful moments of my life—gone. And now… they’re back. I still feel mixed. Honestly, it’s heartbreaking that someone I once trusted could try to erase not just my work, but part of my identity.. and in turn, hurt our kids too. But I’ll keep my side of the street clean. I’ll keep showing up and fighting for peace, for justice, for what is right. Huge thank you to the YouTube Support team and everyone who helped bring my work back to life. I will never forget it. This isn’t just content. It’s my life’s work. I’m grateful. I’m tired. And yes.. I’m definitely dancing to the Halloween workout tonight. #cybercrime #postseparationabuse
Ugh I cant wait to make you laugh again. That’s my passion. I actually feel Its one of my main purposes in life. But lately… the fog the fear the dread.. it’s been hard to shake. I’m doing everything I can to heal, to stay strong, to protect my peace… But god, I miss feeling funny. I miss feeling safe. Creative. Light. I cannot wait for all of this shit to be over so I can feel like myself again. And when I do…oh, I’m coming back stronger, weirder, louder, and funnier than ever. Thank you for sticking by me through the mess. I know it’s not always fun to witness. But your support means everything. 💛